6.26.2008

where have i been?



wouldn't you like to know? Recap: well, for starters i have been soaking this album in...it's different, weird...and i like it. Yes, I even purchased this one. Other than that...I am married to my work, took photos of Andrew the lead singer of Jack's Mannequin (formerly from Something Corp.) pics up soon. I am going out alot, roadtrip to vegas with 9 guys, danced and sang at margaritaville, swam in the pool at sunrise two nights in a row, meeting new people, meeting old people, sunsets in laguna, and stimulating talk of the future, art, business, and life in general. It's fresh. Take it easy!

6.18.2008

Today my face hurt from smiling.

hello from an iPhone in a bed... I find that the only time I have to blog is when I get in bed, it's good because I have what is called "OTS" obsessive thought syndrome, I'm self diagnosed....but blogging helps me get my thoughts down so they are out of my head so I can sleep. So today, June 18th, 2008 goes down in the books as a good day. One of those unexpected days where one unexpected thing happens after another that makes your face hurt from laughing and smiling so much. I started my day by going to the gym, then to jamba juice then swinging by my old work to visit some old friends. I am glad I made that decision, its always good to catch up. A list of random things:

1. 30 minute phone conversations feel like 30 seconds! :) why can't I freeze time?

2. I ate it BIG TIME today. Probably shouldve cracked my knee open but instead I just got up laughing, hysterically at myself. All of my weight on my already stupid right knee is recipe for disaster. I need those knees for dancing tomorrow night and vegas this weekend.

3. I have ideas for new art and am excited. And I got asked to shoot a band called Jack's Mannequin. Good times!

4. I had BBQ for lunch with a friend I am VERY proud of. I am thankful for the friends that inspire me to be better at what i do.

5. I got to step on a massive crunchy leaf when I left work tonight. It made my heart warm.

6.17.2008

the rhythm of a line of idle days...

check your pulse its proof that youre not listening to the call your life's been issuing you.

The rhythm of a line of idle days...

That last line has been repeating in my head all day, and I can't shake it out. So finally, I just made room for it...I swear all my brain holds are lyrics, usless facts, movie quotes, and the ability to remember code and the outfits I wore when I was 5. Well it has gotten me where I need to be the past 25 years. I was thinking today while sitting in my new office (finally)... How easy it is to get stuck in an idle position, in a routine...a pattern if you will. Some thrive on these said patterns others get stuck in a funk wondering how to avoid this vicious cycle. I finally figured it out. If for once you find yourself moving backwards or standing still you need to assess your situation...look at yourself, look at those you're choosing to surround yourself with...are you looking towards making things good in the future, being honest, being positive and making wise choices...if not, turn around and start walking to a better place. It may hurt for a time depending on what you're giving up...but you'll thank yourself in the end. If I end up all by myself and have burned all of my bridges at least i can know that I am a decent human being who lived life whole heartedly and loved to my full capacity without lying or holding back a damn thing. Good day to you.

6.15.2008

fuel and such.

the cost of gasoline in orange county is $4.69.

I miss strawberry shakes...

Baby Mama was just alright. I laughed hardest at the part where amy apologized for farting into tina's purse.

Kevin thinks he got sick by touching a shell at the Salton Sea.

The piano man at la creperie plays journey...and if u take more than 8 people there the add gratuity to the bill, even when you find a spider in your ice cube.

Vegas next weekend.

6.13.2008

I never want to see another steamer...

...For as long as I live.

Shooting product is tedious and mind-numbing. A photoshoot that was supposed to last 2 days is lasting over a week and for some of us that means, yes...16 hour days. So after today's "end of the year" party at hurley when everyone got cash bonuses and beer...we went back to the studio. We are shooting the Holiday 08 line for the launch of ecommerce on our site. 500 articles of clothing and each must be steamed...I am now a professional steamstress, and I take pride in that. After the first 150 your brain becomes numb and you start hearing things, you start craving random foods like a pastry from the jazz kitchen at Disneyland, you snap out of it. By item 300 you start smelling things...while steaming fleece it smelled exactly like hotel room bed comforters in las vegas. The printables and knits smelled like fish, ew. And the mens shorts smelled exactly like Pirates of the Carribean the ride, specifically the part where you go into the ships and canons, it was odd. Once Monday rolls around and we pull a late nighter who knows what will happen. Something entertaining im sure. I'll keep you posted.

6.12.2008

Through me tell the story.

Over the last year I have kept my thoughts tucked away in a brown leather journal...on it's pages my heart, spilled out. I wrote without changing a thing, and without holding back. As I wrote my final entry in it last night I begin flipping through it. Reading and shaking my head, letting out small sighs...it only took me several pages to realize why I kept a journal... in a matter of seconds it put everything over the past year into perspective. Keeping a journal is a good thing, it reminds me just how stupid and naive I can be at times. Live and learn.

6.11.2008

Dark room, soft bed, and my stupid brain!

"My future seemed to stretch out before me like a straight road. I thought I could see along it for many a milestone. Now there is a bend in it. I don't know what lies around that bend, but I'm going to believe that the best does. It has a fascination of its own, that bend."

6.05.2008

lyrics from a random person from mars.

I've written songs about space and time

When you told me you needed to figure out life

I've sung the songs about backing away

Songs about love that fades away

I wrote about a love once contained

The kind of love that made my world change

Only to have it thrown in my face

Pencil to paper

Thoughts become words

I started writing down all the pages of hurt.

Forgive and forget…

Give the benefit of the doubt

Second chances

They never really worked out.



This is my last song

this is where I say goodbye

To a love I thought was true

I can't give you what you want this time

You had my heart for quite sometime

But when I tell you this

Please don't look me in the eyes



Something uncertain

You thought that I was

But come to find out

You were the uncertain one.

You thought you'd get hurt

By falling for me

But looking back now

I gave up my heart too easily

You called it special

what you and I were

use the term loosely

and it cheapens the word

I hope you're comfy in the bed we made

I lost my heart with one mistake.

Your words told me one thing

But your actions spoke more

One day I hope you learn how to open the door

And love with your whole heart

Even if its not me



Swore I'd never show you

The scars from being crushed

But somewhere along the way

I wasn't as strong as I thought I was.