9.27.2011

Unresolved.



I picked this song because..

1. I absolutely love the passion behind Tony's voice.
2. I am a sucker for the piano.
3. I love songs that start out with a series of questions.
4. He sings N'SYNC at the end.

Raise your hand if you have ever felt like you left something and had unresolved feelings? Immediately, you think of relationships right? LOVE. I feel like everyone thinks of love first. Your first thought might have been...hmmm, who is this about? What person is Steph relating this to? But really...I encourage you to not think about ME cause you'll never figure me out. Think about you.

Unresolved feelings in relationships/friendships can eat us alive if we allow it to. I do, however, love some unresolved things in life. For example, going to the movies... sitting through the whole thing and the ending does not leave me thinking "oh that makes sense, i totally get it"...instead I leave the movie with crazy brains. I like to make my own ending. Like I've said before my brain is a crazy festival of midgets and spinning rides. Also, I enjoy unresolved music at times...musical dissonance, if you will....but that's about it I suppose. I don't think anyone really cares for the "What If's" in life. Here are some questions...let them marinate in your brain juices. Do human beings ever really let things go completely? What's the best way to deal...Do we resolve things on our own and get over it? Do we push it to the back of our heads and keep ourselves distracted. Everyone deals differently...I know how I deal, how do you?

"Unresolved" - not brought to a conclusion; subject to further thought; an open question.


"What have I done? Where did you go? Was I the one? Guess I'll never know...." 

9.26.2011

that time i stayed up for 33 hours...

This night HAD to be documented because I haven't had a night/morning like this in a lonnnng time. I am going to start out this post with a question for you....How often do you take time out of your day to truly get to know someone?


"VV" drinking coffee at 4:30am.
Don't get me wrong...I understand that most of us are too busy to even get to know our own families...we are consumed with work, figuring out our own problems and being robots stuck in the same routine. I quit my job for 2 reasons and two reasons only: 1- to spend my day doing something I love...it is much more rewarding. 2- to make my own schedule so I could get to know people in my life and meet new ones. Well this weekend I cleared my schedule and just went with the flow.


I got ready at 1pm for a wedding I was shooting [TreeHouse Wedding Studio - Dallas, TX] in Weatherford, TX. We got to wear cowboy boots and jeans cause the wedding was in the sticks. 


Here's how the night played out after that....










Wedding in Weatherford, TX.
  • 6+ hours of shooting and meeting new people at the wedding.
  • Changed my shirt & headed out to Fort Worth with some friends to go country dancing. 
  • My friend VV (pictured above) and I were the only ones left over at 2:30am.
  • We spent close to an hour listening to Taylor Swift & talking about life. It was really the first in depth conversation we've had since we met a year ago. Sad but happens often.
  • Waffle House at 4am. 
  • 5am: Met an old lady named Francis (see old lady head in picture above.) I told VV i was gonna kick myself if I didn't know her story. She was from Portland, Maine & enjoyed breakfast by herself most morning.
  • 6am: impromptu trip to Walmart for grocery shopping? haha
  • 6:30am: our 9th cup of coffee that day on the patio.
  • 7:00am: my first motorcycle ride on the street. The sun was rising. I was scared to death but made it out alive.
  • 8:00am: More coffee & hang out time with Ali.
  • 10:30am: Fuzzy's tacos and acting ridiculous.
  • 11:30am: Random trip to the driving range haha
I calculated the next day that I had my cowboy boots on for 26 hrs straight.

Moral of this story...take time to listen. Take time to be random. Be spontaneous and laugh a lot. Soak up every moment. Make memories. Enjoy your friends...they could be gone tomorrow and you're gonna wish you got to know them better.





9.13.2011

Hide in a raincoat when things are falling apart.



This band from my home town [Young the Giant] is too good not to share. Young the Giant & Lucy Rose...my 2 newest obsessions. I am currently in the TreeHouse burning a hazelnut cream candle & drinking coffee. I am so beyond excited for the Fall. I am also looking forward to "Thursday Paint Day" a weekly activity that I have added to my schedule. Watch for more paintings HERE.

9.12.2011

speechless over this music...

but you know I'll write anyway.


Seriously folks, there are just some nights where I sit in my room with low lighting, my big headphones on & search for new music....until I get THAT feeling. The one that makes me speechless. The one that makes my heart feel like a sack of mush...the music that makes me look forward to tomorrow more than I already did. The one that makes me feel lost but found all at the same time. That feeling that makes me want to hug someone. The feeling that makes me want to be alone...right here in this moment. Where the only thing that matters in life right now is this song. THAT feeling is one word...and I am searching for it.

Truth be told...I have fallin in love with music, with scenery, with feelings, with being alive...it's so easy. SO EASY. Many things in life come natural for me...others, not so much. Every day is a step closer to figuring out the unknown...little by little paint is added to the canvas of my life and soon I will understand & it will be beautiful.

Listen to the feeling behind what she is saying. Get lost in every expression. I want to reach out and grab what she's feeling inside...just once. Goodnight<3